“If you let go a little, you will have a little peace. If you let go a lot, you will have a lot of peace.” ~Ajahn Chah
I made it my New Year’s resolution to forgive someone for his past actions. Unfortunately, he’s not here to know.
My dad passed away from cancer last September. There are times I miss him a lot; other times, it’s nice to have peace in my life.
We never got along. My mother and others told me it was because we were too much alike, but I knew that was not the case.
That’s just something outsiders say when trying to simplify your relationship.
Besides being extremely difficult to get along with, my dad had extramarital affairs, which I knew at an early age. I’m very close with my mom, so I took it personally. I was not going to let anyone hurt my best friend.
My dad denied everything, but that didn’t release these feelings that I had inside me since I was a child.
In August 2010, my father was diagnosed with head and neck cancer. He was self-sufficient for the first eight to nine months of his sickness, but in June 2011 he had to get a major surgery that left him totally dependent on his family.
Since my mom worked full time, that left me to care for him. I knew I could put our past behind us during this time, but he couldn’t.